just because we are

kay, I made a mistake. I deleted all my blog post from 10+ years ago, so I won't be able to see how much I grew or if I actually did. But whatever, I don't know what I am going to write about, even if I am going to write or if I am doing this is b/c I am bored on a Saturday night on my last night of Thanksgiving weekend. I am Anissa. I am 26. I was born and will die a Southern girl. I for those who are interested am an Aries sun, Cancer moon and rising. I still do not know who am I or even if I am. I hated metaphysics, but "I think, therefor I am." so yeah maybe I am b/c I think I am sarcastic and vaguely resemble a 

    Now it is June 21, 2025 and I am 29 and I still hate metaphysics b/c of the unknown, I also wrote that in November 26, 2022. "I think therefore I am" although I now know that is not metaphysics pretty sure that is rationalism....after a quick Google search I was right. No I do not think anyone would understand who I am but I am sure of what I want to be and how to get there. I am a Library Science graduate student with dreams of working for the Library of Congress. I hope to live well and I hope in 10 year I can still say my favorite book is On the Road by Jack K. I still hope to be able to laugh at things I thought were a big deal and they were not. I type like I talk in a ramble fashion, with random quotes and facts when I can. On Saturdays I do 'Cinema Saturday', where I just watch movies I have not seen or maybe sometimes have seen, it just depends on my mood. I do not know how long to make blogs. Today, I went to my grandmother's house so I was not able to watch as much as I would like but I am watching Eraserhead directed by  David Lynch. It is very surreal and makes me feel. Movies like this I remember forever. Okay so what else, I am single and I do not mind. I am living in Metairie but this time next year I hope to be moving out of state maybe to San Fran, Miami or a place that has a beach. I do not know how to end this off, I do not think I talked about anything profound or this blog will be my magnum opus but I am here and I am willing to speak. Maybe do a different topic everyday even on the days where nothing makes sense. I will end off by saying I am an Absurdist which I would like to explain what that is. An Absurdist is - a belief that the universe is irrational and meaningless. It states that trying to find meaning leads people with a seemingly meaningless world. A core tenant of absurdism is to find meaning in the meaningless. I just found that picture I added maybe I can do that on June 22, although it is now June 22. Here is my quote: "The realization that life can is absurd cannot be an end, but only a beginning." - Albert Camus