June 25 + 3. How will you begin?

By waking up and choosing to be better. By waking up and being. How will I begin my career hopefully applying to one of the companies that I put in my notes. I also would like to begin by beginning, by starting a new habit or routine (cooking every week)? I love that I do Cinema Saturday. I can't wait to start a beginning somewhere else and be myself like I always am. I tried to think about quotes about beginnings or how to begin ideas that I saw but I could not find any. I would like each season for me to begin anew. My favorite season is fall. I feel my soul beginning in the Fall. I love Halloween and I love watching the leaves changing. Maybe this season I can go to D.C and visit the museum. I do not know if that is what the prompt wanted. I hope we all can begin and be happy and content.

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Wellll, I think that blogging is working. I feel my ideas becoming more linear when I am thinking. I know it has only been for 3 days but I look forward to writing these, answering prompts and talking about my days. Although I hope no one sees them, but these blogs mean a lot. I wish they could longer, but I do not like to ramble much. I wanted to talk more about who I am I guess....I am 29! I think I said that I was an Aries sun, cancer moon & rising (yes double cancer)! I am a future librarian. I love watching cartoons, I want to buy a bookcase and a mattress and that quilt I linked. I work out, getting into hotworkx (July) and start running next weekend. I am confused about why I do not seek love at the moment because I find romantic love to be beautiful. I guess because I do not know what I imagine love is. I would like to imagine love to be walking along a babbling brook in the middle of a nice Spring day where it is not too cold or too hot. It would be a day where everything goes right and me and the person I love are just speaking about anything that comes to mind. I would love for my partner and I to play Scrabble or have a picnic. I think this love would be peaceful and challenge me in ways that will allow me to grow and not feel bad about myself. I think love if done with good intentions would be the best thing in the world. I think that is why I love Romanticism. They center a lot of their works  in of nature. I love the idea of having a small cottage for vacations to get away from the bustle of urban lifestyle. I would love to live in a William Wordsworth poem. I Wander As A Lonely Cloud is one of my favorite poems. My other fav poems are Mad Girl's Love Song and Song Of the Open Road Sylvia Plath and Walt Whitman (respectively). I subscribed to poetry foundation to get into more modern poetry. This blog is weird, lol I went from talking about love to poems. I suppose that is what a blog is the rambles of a 29 year old young woman, lol. I wanted it to be longer more substantial but I think any time I type I am saying something. I do not typically talk about love verbally, I try to keep things "deep" to myself. I do not think people would care if I spoke about anything. I feel like my ex (which I will try to find a nickname or something) did not like to get too deep so I watered myself down. Now I am trying to find a balance because always being too serious and being too ditzy. I want to figure out how to be soft and hard. I want to be naturally me.

"Why didn't I learn to treat everything like it was the last time? My greatest regret is how much I believed in the future." -Jonathan Foer