Macbeth + beautiful words

The sky before it rained yesterday. 

This is going to be a short one. I have to eat and workout. I also have to do some research tonight for my paper. Today for some reason the scene from Donnie Darko where Donnie and Ms. Pomeroy talked and she said that a famous linguist once said the most beautiful word in the English language is "cellar door".   I guess because I am thinking about shutting a chapter (door) on my past and hopefully opening a new beginning with new cycles (I do not think that is the right word for it). I am trying to think of all the words I know and what I would consider the most beautiful word. I like the word soliloquy. Every time I think about that word (which is more often than I realize) it makes me think of Lady MacBeth and her famous soliloquy. MacBeth is actually my favorite Shakespeare play. I loved it. I loved the scenes with the witches, I love the scene with Macbeth realized his fortune had come true just not in the way he expected. It was a good read and actually I watched Denzel Washington play Macbeth in the Apple Tv movie. 

I want to say sorry blog I would have a prompt but I guess today I just felt like rambling. or yapping which to me has a more positive connotation. Work is becoming very stressful and I do not typically say that but it has been. I also decided to make a better financially literate person to not get running shoes just yet but to get the running insoles. I have decided to live with more disicipline and give up sex and alcohol and continue working out in a scheduled manner. I think when I show up for myself this way good things are going to continue to happen. 

I often feel like my spirit is moving me to be more honest. I wish I was ready for a boyfriend because there is someone in my mind that I would have attempted to date if I could (or even if he would want to). I guess I do still want to get to know him more but now I feel like that might be too weird since he has a girlfriend 😞. I also wished I would have been more honest with a lot of people but sometimes I do not know how to stand up for myself. I think I have said that a couple of times. I am not trying to be woe is me but just be honest and sometimes I feel like I am not being honest in this blog only because honesty requires another notch in the soul that I have not reached. I need to look up the path to Enlightenment and see what step I am on (if I am even on a step). 

Also I am going to end tonight with Lady Macbeth's soliloquy. 

"Come, you spirits / That tend on mortal thoughts, unsex me here/ And fill me to the crown to the toe top-full/Of direst cruelty! Make thick blood/Stop up the access and passage to remorse,/That no compunctions visitings of nature/Shake my fell on purpose, nor keep peace between/ the effect of it!" Act 1: Scene 5