What decisions am I facing right now? & future plans & MORE BOOKS and furniture

 I think my biggest decision is how to start the process of moving out of state. I am getting a second job to start the process of saving up money because I know that it will be expensive. I would say I did not expect me to be moving to a different state by myself I just thought I would have a lover but man makes plans and God laughs. Also I touched on it briefly but my Astrocartography has put DC in my number one spot to live however, I want to make sure my soul is healthy. In DC it does not seem like it would be but I would be doing well in my career. Also I guess that is the next big decision is my career. I know that I love the library science program I am in however, in trying times it would not make sense for me to leave the legal field to go to library science field. I want to be a Research Library or a Law Librarian however the Law Librarian ( I gotta be honest idk if that should be capitalized or not, lol....) requires me to have a J.D (I looked at multiple jobs and some of them ask for law library experience and MLIS however if you know how much they make in an entry level position you would be laughing blog) so now I am nervous about when the time comes for me to get a job I am lacking in the experience. I have had two different internships but it has been so long ago I would put it on my resume but it would not count towards much. I have also been looking for remote internship  because I need it to fit in with my work schedule. I found one but it was for taxonomy or was it cataloging....not sure however it does not matter I think I might apply it is not due until August 8. 

 Additionally, a small decision I am having to make is my classes for next semester coming up. I had such a hard Spring semester and I typically feel like I am pretty good at keeping my head on straight but last semester was TOUGH. 

Yeah this prompt was not meant to be that long but I am always thinking about my future and my decisions. I am trying to make sure I am where my feet are but I have a hard time not thinking about the future. I over think which is so funny because there is not a thought in my eyes.

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I have to say I always put the title of what my blogs will be about before I type however 'future plans' I am not sure what I was talking about ha ha. For the last couple of days I have had a terrible headache this blog is going to be short. I want to discuss what furniture I am buying so it is somewhere concrete: 

• bookcase
• coffee table
• bar stools (tall ones for my island)
• lamp
• mattress
• vanity  

I am going to attempt to make my apartment more 'homey' because I live here so I might as well.  I also have more books to add to my book sale list. I want to say I am not going to the book sale with the hopes that I can get every single book I just want to make sure that I am giving myself as many options as possible. 

• The Myth of Sisyphus and other essays by Albert Camus
• East of Eden by John Steinbeck
• The trial by Franz Kafka 
• The Stranger by Albert Camus

Also I want to research African American essayists just to see what I can find and to add them to my book collections. 

((Albert Camus and Franz Kafka are two authors I am excited to read more about. One because Camus help popularize Absurdism and Kafka and Fyodor Dostoevsky always get compared to each other and I would love to see more similarities or differences in their writing) I will say reading Metamorphosis when Gergor Samsa starts talking about his transformation and how he is suffering it reminded me of the main character in Crime and Punishment Rasknolnikov. I do want to do a re-read of that book as well. 

Also I want to challenge myself a bit. I am going to read three articles a week and then give a summary about it. I am going to go down to writing maybe 3 days a week. While I do like blogging I have to focus on school. Back to the article challenge three articles.. I am going to make sure the articles are interesting and I am going to make sure that I read articles that I may not agree with (perspective wise) I have a subscription to the New Yorker and I am sure I can access NYT or Washington Post through my school.

So from August 1 - August 31 that is what I will do. Anyways I have to go do homework now. Bye blog :-) 

"I am doing my best to not become a museum of myself. I am breathing in and out." - Natalie Diaz