Write a tender letter to the future version of yourself. What do you hope they’ve become, and what do you want them to remember about now?

 This is a good prompt, I am going to find a cute duck gif to add because I love ducks and I love the color yellow. 

This gif also has nothing to with anything I just thought it was nice :-)

Dear future Anissa, 

(And by future I mean my 30 year old self in July 2026). 

I hope you are doing well. I hope you finished your graduate program and was able to find a internship that allowed you to get a job in your field. I also hope you have your car (Honda Civic Sport 2025) and have finalized the plans to move out of state by August 2026. I also hope you have maintained weight loss and your skin has gotten better. I hope you started your goal of reading The Idiot and War and Peace (two long books but two classics). I also hope you managed to keep your friends and have been in therapy for a year!! (AKA you started in 2025). I also hope that you know where you're going and how to get there. I hope you found a nice apartment and that your next job pays you 65k+. I also hope that your apartment finally gets furnished with the colors you find calming and fun, with a nice balcony, and friendly neighbors. I also hope you are happy and I mean genuinely happy. A happy that can be described as a sun hug. I also hope you and our sister are still close  I also that you have become financially literate and more emotionally intelligent than you are in July 2025. I hope when you have a crush on someone you are open and honest and not shy and weird about it. I hope you start to date when you get comfortable in your new city. I hope that you are okay, you are healthy and that you have allowed yourself to grow in ways that I have not yet imagined. 

I hope you  remember to be kind even when you do not feel like yourself. I hope you sticking up for yourself in times where the Anissa now cannot fathom. I hope you remember how to enjoy life even when you are sad. 

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I actually was thinking about what I wanted to write about but today I want to talk about my day. I was on the phone with a client and he spoke about suicidal ideations because of his teeth being badly decayed. I felt my chest cave in and a wave of emotions come over me. I felt true sadness for him (no not pity) but true despair because I know what that feels like to not want to be here anymore. After consoling him I had to step away from my desk because I wanted to cry and I did not want to be seen doing that in my cubicle of all places. I wanted to share that I was there, I wanted him to know he found a comrade, that I have been there and sometimes I still am there but alas I said nothing to maintain a professional air. I also witnessed an interaction between the rudest bus driver and a patron. I wanted to tell her to report him but I helped the same patron figure out where the next bus was located and I could tell she did not understand English too well.  I guess this brings me to wonder what does kindness look like to me. Doing small things for people when they do not ask like offering fruit, or candy or even asking them about an appointment they went to. It is also remembering their favorite restaurant, asking them how they feel about certain situations, getting to know their childhood or even asking them small things like, "What would constitute as a prefect day?". It is important to be kind in a world that makes human interactions seems odd or insincere. (I finally put on my glasses on). Today was just another day to show up for yourself and the people around you whether you know them or not.  And I hope I did that today. 

I also wanted to touch more on my favorites but this time my favorite songs. I love so much music I am going to stick to the top 25 songs and make sure I am touching on every genre.

1. Helicopter by Maisie Peters
2. Religion by Lana Del Rey
3. Hot Girl by Meg thee Stallion
4. B4L by 6lack
5. Seasons by 6lack
6. Street Chains by Lil Wayne
7. Music To Watch Boys To by Lana Del Rey
8. Marvins Room by Drake
9. Shut it Down by Drake ft Dream
10.  I Want You to Change (Because You Want to) by Maisie Peters
11. Coachella - Woodstock in my Mind by Lana Del Rey
12. Candy Necklace by Lana Del Rey
13. Don't Smile by Sabrina Carpenter
14. On Your Side by A Rocket to the Moon
15. Lost in Stereo by All Time Low
16. You Kill Me (In A Good Way) by Sleeping with Sirens
17. Star Crossed by Scary Kids Scaring Kids
18. The Left Side of Everywhere by Sleeping with Sirens
19. Dead In The Water by Hawthorne Heights
20. Saving Grace by The Maine
21. Whoever She is by The Maine
22. Chelsea Smiles by Bring Me The Horizon
23. My Heart by Paramore
24. Cross My Mind by Jill Scott
25. Stan by 6lack

This was hard!!!! I love so many songs that the first 10 maybe 15 songs I knew by heart but I had to change the amount from 20 to 25 because I did not want to limit. Also I am into making playlist and I made a playlist 2 weeks ago I will list the songs below. I am going to try to make a playlist every month of different ideas or themes. 

Playlist title: It's okay I'm okay

1. Opposite by Sabrina Carpenter

2. Don't Smile by Sabrina Carpenter

3. I Love You, I'm Sorry by Gracie Abrams

4. Casual by Chappell Roan

5. To Last by Tyla

6. Can't Do Better by Kim Petras

7. Dear God by Tate McRae

8. it's okay I'm okay by Tate McRae

Very girly pop, very cute, very what I need to listen to to get over my unrequited crush for sure. Actually, I am going to use all this imaginative and wanton energy to run. It definitely gave me better energy because I hate sitting idle.  Also my class this summer is actually pretty cool any my paper topic is........*drum roll* please focusing on how to deter juvenile recidivism or how libraries can help it. Also, I finally decided that I want a kid by the time I am 34. I already have the name picked out if it is a girl: Ava Eloise (last name is TBD...LOL) if it is a boy: Adam Elijah (last name TBD).  Which is surprising  since I was very 50/50 or even 60/40 to having kids 60% was the NO lol. 

Also I did not mean to make this blog so long it was definitely on accident, hopefully you learned something about me or I inspired you to be kinder or considerate. 

"So what? You failed your finals. You gained some weight. So what? You're single again. You lost your job. So what? What now? You live. You try again. That's what."

(Also these quotes are booked marked in my Google Chrome because on my tumblr blog I used to do a quote a week also used to do the same thing on Twitter.)