Random

 Only blogging because it has been 3 days and I feel bad! I do not have much to say but I just wanted to say hi!! Also, wanted to say when I am talking to people and I am trying to describe why I say certain things I say "I am being polite". I guess what I mean to say is I do not want to come off as crazy, or come off as weird. I over think my intentions with my words because I have been a person who said things with no intention behind them. I also want to say that I do not have a great ball of sadness in me, now I feel like I am like wading trying to find my way to shore. Every day I do not off myself is a great day. So I am going to go now I actually have a lot homework to do and on Thursdays I clean and wash clothes. Sorry about the short blog. Be kind to yourself and each other. 

"Suddenly I wonder, 'Where is the girl that I was last year? Two years ago? What would she think of me?'" - Slyvia Plath

P.S I have this conspiracy theory about alternate universes where there is the opposite of me somewhere. Someone who likes math, has social skills and someone who is not an inch away from walking off a cliff. 

P.P.S I want to work on my social skills more. I guess I can bring that up in therapy next month. 

P.P.P.S (to answer the quote) I think she would be proud that I broke a cycle. That I started therapy, that I graduate grad school in May 2026, that I am doing Hotworkx, that I started running, that I got glasses, that I am here and trying to be better.