What can I do to prepare for a peaceful night’s sleep? & What am I looking forward? & random thoughts

 I am tracking my sleep for this week because I want to see how I sleep and if I need to do a sleep study for sleep apnea. I have to make a better sleep schedule maybe I am going to start waking up early to work out so when I get home I could do another work out or I could start winding down for the night. I also started classes again and I don't want to get only Bs or Cs I want to get As so I am buckling done. Additionally, I can stop watching tv to go to sleep and use the nature sounds lol. Also getting a new mattress next month and better pillows. Look up why a higher thread count matters. Drink chamomile tea and just make sure I read enough at night. 

Speaking of reading I am working on getting my next philosophy book and I am stuck between wanting to read Nietzsche and Camus. I did just read a sample of Myth of Sisyphus and he quoted NIETZSCHE!!!!!!! So I think I should read both. I am into philosophy because I want to find a better way to live or be inspired on how to continue to live properly. I want to not deny myself of corrosive desires but I want to make sure that I am not always going for instantaneous gratification. Additionally this was not what the prompt was supposed to be about bur I did not know what other ways to get peaceful nights sleep. I think this is a good prompt to think about I thought about getting magnesium like my sister suggested. 

I keep getting distracted so terribly so I am going to attempt to finish this blog without distraction or so much distractions. I have been watching Law & Order: Criminal Intent Vincent is hot.  I really want to go to NYC. However I am looking forward to not having to live paycheck to paycheck, I really want to go to Miami sometime in March or Feb next year. Also I am looking forward to graduating and getting the body I want by my 30 birthday. I am tempted to get a personal trainer to help me achieve those goals. Also I wish I was able to stick to one topic at a time but my mind moves so fast that wish is somewhat hard for me. I hope to find a person who can understand my rambles and rants. I found friends who I think understand me. Also I am not into self depreciating especially about one's body especially I am saying that because of an experience I had with a coworker yesterday and had to explain myself to her today to ensure that she knows I was not trying to call her fat (WHICH I WOULD NEVER) I JUST CAUHGT 10:10 for the second time today WOOOOOOOOO!! 🎉🥳🎉🎉🥳  Let's see what that means: about personal growth, aligning with your higher purpose, going with the flow. Seeing 10:10 may indicate love on the horizon, financial abundance, and a transformative journey of self-discovery. 

I guess these are the random thoughts I wanted to think about. I do want to touch on one topic but the guy I had a crush on like he's so fascinating and cool (still think he is utterly predictable because of the yes man comment) but I think I like fan girled too hard lol. I think like idk this blog is supposed to be a honest blog so like from May- August he pretty much tole me that "we will never amount to anything" totally cool like great got that but like the reason why I do not speak to him much is because I feel like I was being maybe too creepy or too eager or something so I like very much eased up. What I mean by that is I do not go up to his desk and speak and I wait until he speaks to me so I am just chilling and allowing the conversation to happen naturally.  Also we did have a good conversation yesterday but I don't like linger on them as much as I used too. I just do not want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.

So yeah I guess this blog is just about how I maneuver through life when trying to become a better person or attempting to cultivate better relationships with people (obvi not like romantic right now). I will attach a picture of this water coloring thing I have been doing and it's so cool!! I used water coloring pencils. 

I have not taken pictures of the sky sorry, I will try tomorrow to make sure I look up and pay attention. 

 For this quote, I found one I used that started August 24 and ended August 30. 

"I'm homesick for arms that don't want to hold me."

P.S I am excited for Halloween. 

P.P.S Thanks for listening sorry this took me a while. I guess I more unfocused than usual.