Things that took up too much time

 Hi!! It is 11 pm and I am writing late. 

The thing this year that took up too much time was my crush on this guy I work with. I let it consume my entire summer (I thought he liked me back) ((I am usually never wrong about these things but I was this year)). I often met guys who "want to kick me off my high horse"" or like I feel take my "shine" away and I am not saying saying this crush did that but I felt like sometimes I could not fully be myself without getting judged. (Even if he says, "I deserve kindness.") Which in my pervious blog post I did talk about some of the things he told me and I want you to know blog I did talk to him about that. He said that he was "just kidding" but I am not the kind of person you can joke with off rip you have to truly get to know me. I also want to say the reason why I thought he he a small crush on me are for like specific reasons I was not just making things up in my head. Like who kisses someone since MAY and does not have feelings. Or even better we hung out like every day in May when he first got hired and we went to lunch together and he buy me lunch often. ADDITIONALLY, I just know when someone likes me it's a look in the eyes. 

I can very much go on but I do not think I have a crush on him anymore I do find him attractive but that is because I have freaking eyes!!!!!!!!!! 

Anyways that is what took up too much time hahahah. (**laughs to stop from screaming**)

""But I like you." He cleared his throat. "I like you first second and third."" - F. Scott Fitzgerald